Reign On My Mind

Whisking through the air carelessly
Piercing the sounds of silence,
Penetrating the innocence of my youth,
The invisible bullet hits me - and makes my eyes water for a reason
It makes them growl with the hunger of life.
It is my minds elation to go home and take out a sheet of paper
And scribble down the words that feed in my brain,
Leaving only a stain of what cells use to look like after the night is old.
Every letter that I write bleeds its meaning into my head and is stroked through the paper
Embedded forever on the opposite side of the growing tabloid of my life's events
And impressed into the wood grained desk - leaving a signal of what's to come,
The red cloth is being forced over my eyes enraging me like a bull,
It enrages me to have to look at you this way, in contempt
So much I start to bear some cold sweat - and I wipe my brow
Feeling the warm fingers wipe across my forehead makes me look around,
And I try to make myself upon the shoulders of the youth I once had.
But this life no longer has the energy that it did before,
Everyday that I go through - it just makes everything ache so much more
The bones just rub against each other, and the grinding plays in my ears.
In a way its the undisputed beat of my heart,
And that is but a countdown, to quitting time.
And as I try to pilfer the blood that I lost on my sheet of paper,
I feel as though I am a thief in my own home, watching myself destruct before my own eyes.
So meet me in the atmosphere and watch the sun collide with life
Until you feel like me, an earth eating itself alive - but shattered with a broken sphere
And how many tears will I shed upon my own life -
Just to watch them perish like a lost soldier
And as I look around for help - I discover I am alone.
I am solo, and lost in space - in a universe I've created.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2003