Kapalina

I don’t know where my old life ends,
Or where my new one begins
For I am as giddy as a school girl can get
When I talk to the likeness of her.
I feel my struggle with life
Trying to control it so much, I ruin all I had
And more -
I can't escape it,
So what do I do?
I either live this life of recognition
Or form to his precision.
I can feel the rays of the life blow beneath the trees
And the color of it, never as true now as it was before
When I talk to you - All time stops.
For a moment, the world stops spinning
So I embrace it.
Escaping the realism of this world
All because my mind cannot fathom the meaning of this word - faith
So foreign is it to me that I choke on it
I feel so embarrassed, that I point to you
So people can stop looking through to me.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2003