Magical Moments

All I could feel is this moment
For every word rang true like a chime in a church bell.
I lived for this moment, and for this feeling
When my chest gets warm like I just drank something hot,
And people can see the fire burning in my eyes
Reflecting the fire in Gods eyes
For even with your eyelids closed your body and senses scream for more as your eyes burst open.
So I harness this fuel and sit drinking some coffee
Engaging in night time cups of conversation.
I am numb to the truth of things, and sometimes even I can't see it.
Sometimes I refuse to see it, I don't want to acknowledge this is apart of me
I almost leave myself not knowing who I am.
For all of our lives we are trained to be a certain way
We are taught how to think, and where to think it.
Every single one of us has been trained by this world
But the worlds teachings and its future are today's epidemic.
Whoever says happiness lay in the sun
Has obviously never danced in the rain.
Everything is what you make it out to be, or so were told.
What is the truth for you.. may not be for someone else around you.
This is what is fed through the eye of the beholder, and eaten up by us all of our lives.
So alone I lay on my bed
Awake in the night time shadows of my bedroom
Staring at this blank sheet of paper is enough to drive me crazy
I must do more.. I must be and become more!
All this being written in the luxury of a dimmed light that shines my way.
But I shall not fear the future for myself,
I am free, forgiven of my sins
Baptized in the water
I took a public vow, professed my faith in the unseen
For my eyes don't need to see it
My hands don't need to feel it
And my mind doesn't always have to accept it
For my heart can see the undeniable truth.
I shall fear for the future of my brothers and sisters
Praying for every chance to talk to them.
If you really must see it to believe it
Then open the eyes of your heart
And you will know that it is all true.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2004