Boiler

My heart is pounding
I'm on the edge of my words, in the tip of this sinking ship.
I need you.
A missing pin from a track can de-rail trains.
Birds cause an airplane to crash..
Pets cause car accidents...
I am weak, and a wreck, yet I am he, who's has the pin, the cage, and the leash
But fails to see anything coming.
Take the mask of complacency, place it over my heart
For scarred and broken, and untrusting isn't someone to be.
Help me not be lost in your sea of wonder
These roots of mine are weak and thin
And yours are so strong and divine, let them stretch deep within me
Further than before, making peace out of my civil war.
Show everyone the true reality of who I am.
But in my minds eye I am but a failure
On my own terms, with my own re guard and guidelines.
This filth that I have made my skin, I ask for a change of body, a change of life - change me..
And I surrender.. under your grace and love.
I'm on the edge of this vengeful world,
Hanging on the sharp edge of its persuasive word
Fighting with its morals and systems.
How awesome are you...
Who use the weak to lead the strong.
My world keeps spinning, but if I didn't struggle to keep my balance,
Then I wouldn't depend as much on you.
I want you
My face fills with blood, pounding from the pressure.
Veins are seen working overtime, and a fire explodes in my eye
I burn for you.
Meeting you in this place, to see the face of my embrace.
How I am lost within your presence.
How your love makes sense to the senseless, I may never know.
I Love you Lord.
Hold me tightly within your arms.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2005