Forgiveness

Sometimes you have to forgive someone
Because you want them in your life
No matter how much you deny it,
Or how much you try to elude the truth
Every fiber in your body counts the time you spend apart.
It plays the past back to you in your dreams.
When you finally forgive me,
You feel you have been scared
But who needs and excuse to rip open these scares,
And get to the foundation of things?
The disconnection of my thoughts made me tingle.
Falling silent
I sat - searching for words,
Words that could never fathom my reality.
The unspoken power that I hold is a big distraction
It sends my mind and body off course - to a different dimension.
Leaving me numb, my only antidote for the world.
Still something nags at me and has me asking,
Where do we go?
Even the smallest crevasse in your body feels this emotional shatter of thoughts.
So I write,
To compose my universe
And the construction of my life.
To shed my sorrows of the world, amongst ourselves
Yet still, in the candle lit paper - questions remain.
Finally in due time, I come to terms with myself.
I realize the answers can only be hurled at me
If I resume in the ultimate game, the quest of life.
It is my naturalization and integration to normalcy.
Time holds the answers
They lay hidden like a time bomb for all ages to feel.
So I can't let myself get caught up -
I must live, and carry on
But be preparing myself
For what lay looming amongst the horizon.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2002