Friday, October 14, 2005

Precious

I need to be lost in the hands of time.
Leaving this place where so many overcome the stronghold of happiness.
I left in a flurry of doubt
As I try to blind myself.. I stand upside down
Blood rushes to my head
And now I find myself clothed in the goodness of God
Closing my eyes to the inevitable blackness of my place
But hey
Stand with me
Have some faith
Faith that things will turn out ok..
But it will only do harm.
It is amazing how the happiest time of the year..
Can turn into the most depressing.
Come with me..
And enjoy the silence.
I have filled my eyes..
With everything that I want...
But.. that's not enough.
Even if I am tasting these objects I crave for with my bare hands
I need more.
I've wanted and needed.. but I can't fathom something greater than reality.
I don't know how to say it... it almost can't fathom the words I have waiting for it..
This time I will watch for sharp objects and two sided swords
Until I can learn how to fall with grace
I will learn how to breathe a little easier.
After hearing those piercing cries slashing away at my soul
I'm left to find the antidote
How to seep the cries that spew from your soul
A bottle of sunshine for when things look bleak - I hold in front of you
I have something you want too.
Grasping it like an old man who just found a bottle whiskey, you take part.
And in this song.. I dedicate to you.. and your loyalty
Thank you for being with me through the times when I felt all would fall apart
Thank you for saving me when I was 6 feet below the gravel of reality
For even being with me when my safety net collapsed
You were there to catch me.
For even when I was screaming through my eyes... you consoled me.
Your unyielding belief in me.. has helped me though the hardest of times.
Thank you for being my friend
Hopefully someday I can return the favor
And be a flavor in the dimmed light of faith.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2002

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