I'm Blind

As the sun shines through the evening mist
I get goosebumps crawling up my spine
Hear me calling you
They are daggers stabbed in my soul
She has a little serpent in her drink,
Just enough for the sword to kill.
Holding me by the neck in a speechless angle to the world.
I believe - do you?
The one thing I ask of you
Is to not accept my regrets.
Is it real or are these feelings counterfeit?
These secrets you have indulged in
I wonder through her mind in its entirety.
I meet up with a mess of thoughts
I don't want to cry anymore
I need a cure to my weakness of you.
The neverending saga of deconstructing Jason
Suspension from the eyes that saw into the world
I get what was coming to me
I know why I felt like I have been kicked in the stomach
It is this thing, this taste of defeat
And living a lie, shunt go any further.
I built up a lie, and made it a moutain
So now I jump.
It takes one.
Just one conversation
To make everything come to focus
Through the specs of the glasses all creditability has been lost
Just one conversation makes my world stop spinning.
The truth and the lies.
I dont want to take these doses of reality
Like some cherry nyquil that makes you want to puke.
My eyes search over the words
They are filled with compassion.. skipping the most important part.
Classic case of boy meets girl.
Those few little words always pop up.
I will love you,
Now and forever.
Even if I am watering my mind with the condolences of reality,
I am still blind in the light of you.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2002