Mind over matter

What is it, this film...
The taste of a lie in my mouth.
You look at me, we lock eyes in this glorious moment,
But I look away knowing I simply can’t,
You call my name knowing what to say.
Pleasure and excitement fills me from head to toe…
I know that I'm not doing it…If I tell myself enough times...
I might believe it.
I keep telling myself mind over matter
That lie resonates in my brain and the echo’s of it look down
They look down the empty hallways I call memories

Mind over matter
And now I've gone too far.
I turn back to my girl and the shame fills my body.
Feeling dirty all over I struggle to keep eye contact
My hands shake as I realize what a mistake I have just made
I bought this self discovery on impulse
And it costs dearly.

I turn my head and offer a prayer,
And shiver at the cool silence that crashes over me.
Help me make the right choice,
My mind is willing, my flesh so weak.
I finally start to realize its matter over mind.

Poem by J.A.D. © 2006